I Did It For Me

I’m sorry to state an uncomfortable fact:
When you saw good in me, it was only an act.
You thought I was selfless; that’s just what I’ve lacked.
I wanted the benefits only, you see.
I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.

When I give my money and time for the poor,
My charity’s seen with respect and allure.
I’m just grabbing points, to increase my social score.
I did it to curry some favor from thee.
I didn’t do it for them. I did it for me.

I sought good ideas and fought bad ones to death,
I tried to speak only the Truth with each breath,
Promoted real dialogue as a new shibboleth.
Why? I think I’m smart; wanted you to agree.
I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.

When you needed my help, and it was hard to ask,
I stepped right up to assist in your task.
But I’m telling you now what is behind my mask.
Someday I might need your reciprocity.
I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.

When tragedy struck, and a part of you died,
I held your hand, and together, we cried.
You needed a friend, but I’m sorry: I lied.
That friendship lights darkness, I wanted to believe.
I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.

And even now, as I confess to my sin,
I just feign humility to cover my skin.
This whole thing’s a ruse; the veneer wears so thin.
If I confess, then I’ll get off scot-free.
I don’t do it for you. I do it for me.

If I accidentally became a good friend;
If I gave what you needed, and with joy did I lend;
If I did some right deeds; if some hearts I did mend;
If I learned moral teachings, and helped them to trend;
If the world was advanced toward a Kingdom of Ends;
You should know that it was only pretend.

Right actions, but all performed selfishly.
I picked the Good lock, since I don’t have the key.
A better world; a failure of morality.
I didn’t do it for you. I did it for me.

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